So I'm here, work is boring since a lot of it isn't relevant to me, but the people are neat, we hang out a lot and I'm glad for that, it's a new chance to shed the massive amounts of baggage I'm carrying, trying new things (ahem) and starting over in a position where I'm away from people when I go home, which may be just what I need.
So, I'm moving to Florida soon. Time to get rid of the baggage from here, get back in touch with the things important to me, and start having fun, because Grad School is goign to ROCK! Watch this space.
http://mp3.surfrock66.com This is for me to listen to my music when I'm not home (RIAA people hunting me down) so it has a password that only I know. I can't legally distribute that password. If you don't understand this and want to listen, ask me and I'll explain it to you.
Life is too busy, so here's a collection of thoughts, check out the Archives since I moved some stuff there to make the site faster, and play the new games and explore the new links!:
I want to thank everyone for giving me such an awesome 21st birthday. All day everywhere I went people wished me a happy birthday, and it was so great to feel such a response from everyone I know. Also, thanks to everyone for something that means a lot, everyone respected my decision to not drink alcohol, and the only people who teased me about it meant it in good humor. It's really a great feeling to know I'm surrounded by so many people that respect me and my decisions, and my heart goes out to all of you!
"Beliefs do not work because they are true; they are true because they work. If, for a particular person, a belief in God works - that is, if it produces practical benefits in terms of happiness, personal adjustment, and psychological health - then for that person, the existence of God is a pragmatic truth. If a person believes that bathing in a particular mineral bath - something [William] James did - will relieve back pain, and it does, then that is a truth for that person. However, such beliefs or truths are not absolute and should not be imposed on others. Because each person's system of beliefs must be established using pragmatic criteria, pragmatic philosophy is an individual and relative system. The pragmatist judges all beliefs by their consequences in action: the statement that John is six feet tall means nothing more than that a one-foot rule can be turned end over end six times alongside John; the statement can be defined operationally. James beleived that pragmatic criteria can resolve the seemingly eternal clash between rationalism and empiricism. James believed rationalists to be intellectual, idealistic, optimistic, religious, free-willed - in summary, "tender-minded," and empiricists to be sensationalistic, naturalistic, scribing to a personality typology." - David Hothersall, summarizing the beliefs of Psychologist and Philosopher William James.
I got a baby turtle, it's a False Map Turtle and it's ferocious, it attached the turtle Jenn's roommate got right away so we had to separate them, I named it The Baron Von Deutchenheim The Second since he needs a royal sounding name, but he's "The Baron" for short. He's neat, and the size of a golf ball.
Hey you guys, this is a short entry since I have so much going on. First, the Arena should be up very soon, where all the A-House business will go. Second, personally, I've been really stressed out lately, little things have been getting on my nerves, but I'm trying as best as I can to fight it and be happy. I don't like making people worry when I see them, so I smile and all that, if I don't, then people wonder, and gossip, and then there's rumors about Jenn and I breaking up, or me failing out, or the world ending. WOW THIS HAS ESCALATED OUT OF CONTROL!!! Anyway, things are really ok, I just have way too much homework to catch up on and my committment level is higher than it's ever been. I'll be fine, I jsut need to catch up. Ok, real fast, watching spongebob, and Mr. Krabs' name is Eugene. Ok, time to study, I have an emergency drill at 6:00 AM, I'll see you all later!
This shouldn't be a long entry. FIrst of all, I'm gonna make the little un-done area on the left the "A-House update area." When I get time, I'll put a calendar and some links there. But as for me, I dont' have so much to say. I got all melancholy for a few days, so I'll post some stuff from that.
How can you look in the mirror after sitting back and complaining that you never have the opportunity? The opportunity is now.
I am afraid of controversy
You're only as sheltered as you let yourself be
Sometimes I like to listen to music so I don't have to hear myself think
Your vote doesn't count, if it counted then you'd be the one deciding, wouldn't you? And don't give me that crap about "oh, what if it's close," if my vote was that important they'd have sent me my friggen absentee ballot one of the 2 years they DIDN'T. And whatever way an election goes, it's your responsibility as a human being to adjust and deal with it, if you wanna be a baby and whine that your vote didn't win, go to another state or country. I'll even pack your bags. I literally challenge all of you who say the state is gonna fall apart because of Ahnold to leave, whether you like him or not, he's the governor and we all have to deal. None of us are the state, but we are all equal members of it, and in this popularity contest we lose sometimes, and being mature means we don't go on the news and begin talking armageddon. Hell, I don't even believe in all his politics, I'm not even his party, and I'm supporting him because he won. It's our responsibility.
There's some lines of disrespect that should never be crossed. It's one thing to not like someone and have disrespect, it's another thing to put yourself in a condescending superiority role over them. DO what you need to do, but have some respect about it. Please.
Neverending battles are called that for a reason. The key is recognize it and remove yourself.
Sometimes, even though you've seen it better elsewhere, tradition is valuable for a reason. And don't step on people's toes.
I don't like prejudice people. Ironic?
Finally, and most importantly, I DO NOT LIKE TO WRITE PEOPLE UP!!! Somehow, I've gotten this label as the HA who is looking to write people up. As a great HA once said, there's a balance between the letter of the law and the spirit of the law. I've written one group up for somehting undeniable, but other than that I have given warnings to people for quiet hours, have taken away the ping pong equipment at quiet hours, and have torn down and colelcted illegal fliers. In fact, I wonder sometimes if I should be more strict, because I feel I'm letting a lot I see go. So if you have that impression that I am looking for trouble, know I'm officially now angry at you (and only you people) and am looking at you specifically to be written up. To everyone else, if you really, truly deserve it, I'll write you up, but I'd rather have a mutually respectful relationship with you where we both understand and respect the rules we all have to live by. No one is perfect, and I don't expect anyone to be. I consider my role as an HA not primarily as an officer, but more as a counselor, I think the most important thing I have to do is listen to someone when they have a problem or concern, and be the voice of understanding/comfort/reason. Some of the most important interactions I've had are people telling me how they went and partied off campus, which is fine so long as I don't see you drunk, but to me, it means they trust me, and the fact that a handful of people at this point have expressed their trust in me makes me confident that I'm doing at least somewhat of a decent job.
Since I'm giving this site out to a lot of people who don't know me well personally, here's a summary. I'm a nerd at heart, I love computers and old TV and guitar and lazer tag and bowling and video games. I am comfortable making a fool of myself, especially if it makes other people feel comfortable. I have a lot of very strong convictions, but I make a point, except in very few cases, to extend it to other people. I like hearing other people's philosophies, I hate it when you try to make me think like you do. For example, without even discussing issues, I consider myself a liberal because 90% of Republicans I know have a pushy, cocky, demanding attitude. They all tell you what to think. That's disgusting to me, I associate myself with liberals because they're the type of personalities I would like to be around. (That's not to say all Republicans are like that, or that I dislike all republicans, some of my best friends are like that, but it's definately something that gets on my nerves, and more often than not I tune that kind of attitude out) I am strongly against drinking, and I never plan on drinking in my life. That doesn't mean I have any disrespect for you if you do drink, and I have no problem being around people who drink, but I've seen the dark side of it and it's not for me. I never plan to drink, not even the customary 21st birthday drink. For all of you who look at astounded that I've never been to a real party or I have no desire to go to TJ, that's why. It's just not for me. Oh, and I don't dance either, ask the Wonder Twins why. I'm heavily involved with my GF, Jenn, of 2 years, we're best frineds and I don't know what I'd do without her. This whole job and room and everything is still new to me and I'm really adjusting still, but when I'm with her I always feel like I'm home, and not just in this temporary room for a year. Other than that, I love watching movies on a friday or saturday night and I have millions, so come by if you like that. For all of you who are reading this, I really want to get to know everyone in the house, and I'm still learning names and faces (Sorry if you say Hi to me and I don't recognize you at first, there's like 600 new people who I've seen and am still learning) I'd like for all of you to stop by and just say hi for a few minutes, it'll help me start a relationship with you. Sianara!
